Holidays with the family

So thanksgiving is fast approaching which means family gatherings and cookouts. Love ones coming together to cracking jokes and eat. Love ones include everyone family, friends, boyfriends and girlfriends. Every thanksgiving is important but this Thanksgiving is going to be the most important thanksgiving there is. Why? Because this is the last thanksgiving we will be having all together for a while, because coming January me and my sister both will be moving to Orlando and starting school at UCF.

crazy right both of my moms daughters will be going to school. I already left the nest and now it’s my sister turn. So I figured since this Thanksgiving might be the last thanksgiving for a while I would invite my bf  that way I can have all my love ones together. But for some reason he shot down the possibility. He doesn’t even think he’ll want to spend it with them in the future. I mean why wouldn’t he? Why wouldn’t he want to be together with my family? If we ever get married they are going to be his family too.

I mean yes they had issues with each other in the beginning but then they learned to accept each other and moms couldn’t be happier for me. He knows this to be true because now they call him bother in law (lol). So why won’t he see and spend time with my family for thanksgiving? He’s not going anywhere or doing anything. 

STD testing

Sometime this week i will be getting tested for std (all of them). This past weekend i got drunk and broke my 3 weeks streak of no sex with my roommate / ex. It wasnt till after I have discovered he had slept with someone else over winter break when he went to see his dad… (go figured huh i had a feeling but didnt listen).anyways we don’t use protection  (yes i know stupid me) so it got me thinking if he doesn’t use protection with me maybe he didn’t with the other girl as well.

Yes Everything so far as been nothing but red flags. But i was stupid enough to believe this guy wouldn’t dare sleep with anyone else…. idiot!! So after all of that i realized i need to get tested. I don’t have an symptoms of anything but better safe then sorry.

Then i found out that he has met up with this girl while i was at work and that she may or may not have been in my house. It just pisses me off like i think so low of him right now i don’t want him touching me or looking at me. He’s whore and he knows he is especially since he said it himself. Who knows how many girls he has slept with… and then there’s me just another girl on the list.

Well not for long bucko- this is your last laugh. No more phone calls no more text messages NO MORE SEX!!! if i can hold out for 3 weeks i can push myself to hold out even longer

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Dreams

This would be the second dream i had where i caught antonio sleeping with someone else. I woke up crying and sweating. For someone who is suppose to be getting over him i was really really hurt.
But why is that the case? Because I’m in love… still. I wish i was a guy because then i can be like him and text any girl and get anything from girl and not feel any pain. He sleep peacefully while i cry becuase i dreamt of him sleeping with another girl and i walked in on him… each time. But each time he ran after me, keeping the nake girl alone. 
How can i get over him if now im dreaming about him?? I then noticed everything he said a year ago was a lie like trying to get new friends and trying to stop smoking. If he lie about all of that, what else has he lied about? was his feelings for me a lie? He was so scared that i wouldn’t give him a chance and of losing me, but that must be a lie because none of that seem true now.
But one thing is true, i never gave up on him even though deep down i know i should

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Hairtopia

So i went to get my hair braided and my hair dresser was shocked lol. My hair has grown so much. Its now at the bottom of my neck i do have 2 texture but i have a head full of curly hair lol. She told me all my heat damage has been cleared and that my hair is getting thicker. She loves my hair lol. I did change up my hair method which is why i think my hair is getting longer and stronger.

I co wash my hair once a week and deep condition my hair once a week. I use my coconut and hibiscus shampoo every 2 weeks and I use Jamaican black castor oil shampoo at the end of the month. I been doing that for about 3-4 months now. And since everyone can see improvement im going to continue doing that. I just have to remember to wrap it up every night.

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Oh no!!

I ran out of shea moisture leave in conditioner!! That thing is a life saver!! I might just die if i don’t get anymore… ok it’s not that serious lol. So until then im using the creme of nature leave in conditioner.

So i have come to terms with my hair loving coconut oil or coconut extract. It leaves my hair feeling as soft as a baby’s bottom. Like i said my hair loved the shampoo and conditioner i was using last time but the shampoo no longer exist in store and im trying not to order anything. So now im back to square one, yay. Any ideas people?

Another thing i tried VO5 Islands Coconut Moisturizer shampoo but i stuck with the suave natural coconut conditioner and the craziest thing…. at the end of my hair wash my hair felt completely dry. The VO5 left my hair feeling soft but as soon as i put the conditioner in my hair started to feel dry. Which of course was weird because my hair was loving the conditioner 3 washes ago… maybe thats a sign of these two products dont belong together??? 

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